since people are asking: fragments of the second part (Cautio Criminalis II, lol)
https://twitter.com/slimedaughter/status/985969766199259136
http://porpentine.tumblr.com/post/151630422333/the-most-important-advice-i-give-to-people-who
but it could be summarized as:
-attack systems, not people
-punishment and incarceration are evil
-total rejection of ideology in favor of improving immediate surroundings on a level below language (make your own communities instead of being grateful to live on the fringes of fake ones)
-health > rhetoric (leftist circles have zero understanding of mental or physical health, adopting completely polarized positions that either enable or eugenicize sufferers instead of integrating them in a healthy way)
-we live in an informant culture where bonds of kinship and community are destroyed in the pursuit of status, accelerating the atomization and paranoia of Western life
-these systems have a real economic and emotional impact on vulnerable people that destabilizes them in every way
-the left is hopelessly narcissistic, making itself the default political position for “people who hate bad things”
But it’s emotionally taxing to write these things, to be called manipulative for it. I don’t profit. I work in entertainment, so it goes against my own best interests. There is no social capital to be gained. I don’t need to purify myself, because I have real friends who know me.
I carry a lot of hurt from it. I never know if writing about it helps. Suffering violent assault without closure leaves an extra pound of pressure on the lungs that rarely lifts. It hurts to find out, years after the attack that left me with serious health issues and diminished life expectancy, that the rhetorical justification happened because I lacked eye contact and was awkward and this was considered a risk factor for violence. I hate the idea of it happening to other people. I know it happens every day.
One of the main things that brings me back to it is that trying to make a living online brought me inevitably in contact with scenes that treat every shy, awkward, different person like a school shooter, rapist, etc. It enriches people who don’t even need the internet to make money, who just get off on hurting people. And the people who need the net to communicate and eke a living are gentrified out of the last place their body can fit.
If only the weak can love each other, I want the weak to understand the systems that keep them trapped in purgatory instead of in love. I survive because I split rent, because I spend time with people who understand that I am sick and that I was born sick, because when I am bad at one task someone is good at another, and vice versa. I understand those things because I failed so many times. Communities need memories, not perfectionist Tamagotchi resets.